now in nus, accompanying mika (and ck) to study for the exams. dun believe that i got so much patience. haha. oh well, managed to do some reading about deterrence.

anyway, mervyn did a health survey of me. basically, he got this gadget that sends electric pulses to the left palm. then based on the level of pain one feels, he'll diagnose the problems. something like acupuncture, and prob have to do with one's nervous sys.

basically, the following was concluded:

i have a bad liver, am showing syptoms of joint problems/arthritis. supposedly caused by stress and too much red meat and beer in my diet.

q frankly, i think i'm stressed. i seem to be thinking of a lot of things at one time. whether i'll get bwc in time. about deterrence. about the core value workplan. about the officers' dinner. and even how to enjoy myself. haha. maybe i'm too ambitious lah, trying to do so many things at one time. but so far, all this stress nv seems to surface. besides the occasional mood swings, i've managed to get my rest and i dun seem to be falling ill. hmmm. but mervyn managed to detect it somehow.

but i dun think stress results from doing too many things. but rather WANTING to do many things, but NOT getting started to do any. mr ikeda once said in some publication, that to relieve stress, is to face your challenges and start working against them. i think it's v true. stress usually results from piling up of leftover work. one usually feel stress when one realises that one has not finished his job. while conversely, one feels relief when one completes his task.

how ironic for me to say this. i'm typing a blog when i've uncompleted tasks. my big boss (coscom commander) asked me how to measure deterrence last month and i've yet to revert to him. (up till now, i dunno if it was a joke. cos he asked the qn when he found out i'm a maths major.) anyway, think i'm making some headway, and i hope to give him some answer soon.

ok lah. end here liao. by the way, mervyn asked me to cut down red meat intake and beer intake. eat more fish and drink more milk. (he say anlene is good. yucks.) well, all except beer part should be executable lah. i dun drink much beer too ma. hmmm.